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  • Maria

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    February 8, 2021 at 5:58 pm

    Simone thank you because your comment helped me see and heal something else! When I first read it I was a bit confused. Then it made me think of my name and how my mother named me after Mary (Virgin Mary- as in the Greek/European culture the name is Maria not Mary) after a very shaky pregnancy that she remained in bed for, for 9 months. The thing was though my mum already had a daughter before me who had died when she was 2.5 years old. She was also named Maria. So all my life I was Maria number 2. And Maria number 1 was perfect in every way and everyone that knew her would tell me about her, how smart she was, how beautiful etc, always referring to me as number 2. It wasn’t fun or easy living in her shadow, a sister I never knew. But when I read your comment I realised Mary Magdalene was also in a way Maria number 2, under the constant shadow of Virgin Mary, shunned and forgotten through time. And somehow this felt like another missing piece slotting into place, and I was able to make peace with it. I don’t mind being Maria number 2 anymore! I’m very much ok with it 😊. So thank you ❤️❤️🌹